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Friday, February 29, 2008

The Morning Hours


His sleepy eyes stared out of the window resting their gaze on the fallen leaves of his favorite tree. This was how he began his day each morning, come rain or hail. During those peaceful moments, he dreamed about what his future would be like. One day, he would become a doctor and help little kids like himself, he thought. He envisioned driving the silver car that Mr. Graham had. The shiny car with a white stripe on it. He would then eat everyday at McDonald's with no one to tell him that he could not eat fries or drink coke. And he would watch Nickelodeon in the evenings. And he would go to sleep, alone.

He was shaken out of his reverie when his mother yelled out loud.

"CHRISSSSS!", she yelled. "I am leaving to work but John is home, sleeping. Wake him up if you need anything."

Chris quietly walked down the winding staircase of their apartment and waved his mother goodbye. He then tiptoed to her bedroom and peeped at his step-father, sleeping half naked, on the giant king-sized bed. After a silent prayer to Jesus for John's deep sleep, he ran upstairs to play games on the computer.

After two hours, John awoke with a grunt, and dragged himself up to Chris's bedroom. Chris stood there numb, like a mouse terrified of being hunted by a dog as he saw the 6-foot-tall muscular man head towards him only with his boxer shorts on.

"Let's play our morning game, buddy", he said showing off his yellow teeth.

The 8-year-old boy started trembling as John put handcuffs around his narrow wrists and pulled his own boxer shorts down. Within seconds of being spanked on his butt, Chris bent down and put John's member into his mouth. He gagged and retched and wanted to scream out loud as John continued to spank him.

"Come on boy!! You can do better than that!", roared John.

Chris began crying as John came. Satisfied, John shoved him aside and threatened to kill his mother if Chris uttered a word to her, just like he did every morning. And then he gently kissed Chris on his lips and walked down to eat pancakes, like every morning.

Chris stared out of the window with tears in his eyes. When he grew older, he would become a doctor, and drive a silver car, and eat McDonald's, and watch cartoons, and sleep alone. And all will be fine. And then just like everyday, he counted, and said, "Only 8 years more".

62 comments:

bt_crist said...

i pray, even i can think of something like this.

manisha said...

ur words do true justice to bring out the empathy as well as sympathy for chris....ws truely wonderful!!!

Zee said...

oh dear..this is very depressing...please write a happy story quickly :(

bt_crist said...

kya madam, i m juss givin my point.
that's it..or aap to "puri duniya me dhindhora pit rahi ho".

m not an evil spirit, a normal lively, vivid human being, like others.

n it wansn't even a matter that, i was teasin u n cindy. juss got hyper for d moment(may be, not sure), as was posting comment for the first ever time in my life.
i mean: i ve entered in to bloggin juss a week ago..so..i hope u understand.
nothing else to say.

Vandita said...

that was horrifying... sneha please kuch non sad likh na this was just ouch!

Pavi!!!! said...

Readin this story as i sip my morning coffee. .. :-( This story I can tell u is a "true story' in many a kid's case!i have read/seen/heard about several such instances in various forms! this problem is widely prevelant and many many mommies over the world tend to overlook it. Its hard for them to blv that this could really happen. n its not just step-fathers, the actual fathers,unvles, grand-fathers do this to their children!
I know a person whose grand-father did this to her. Thank God her parents believed her soon enough tho not the 1st time she told 'em and today she is leading a normal life.
n thats wat makes me think, wher is the human aspect in that human being?

Solitaire said...

@ BT, really? Thought so. Your blogs suggest you have been blogging for a longer time than one week. Where did all those posts come from?

@ Manisha, thank you!!

@ Zee, I tried to but could not. Will try again next time.

@ Vandita, will try the next time for sure.

@ Pavi, I have treated some of these kids. And yes, the stories that I hear are truly shocking. Its hard for some people to believe but its true.

Ghost Particle said...

this is a true memory of many children, lasting trauma of parental or family sexual abuse. but some of the people i met, they forgave their parents and took care of them till they died. its not a strange world, its a world full of strange people.

Bubbles of FireWhiskey said...

depressing but its horrifying what children go through and the kind of injustices done to them... beautifully written...

Deepti said...

There is something spine chilling about this post!!! Its so sad people exploit kids who dont know anything and then end up being scarred for life...

Patchez said...

i'm sorry, Solitaire! but like i said, i wrote the story long bak.. in a spiral bound notebook and with exams crawlin closer i wdnt get much time to tippy-typy on my teletype.. but i promise u of the update..

meanwhile this one was sad.. :( but then your words are darn convincing.. this one was extremely well written with all the poignancy...

Patchez said...

oh! and thanks for commenting on mine ;)

keep in touch!

Solitaire said...

@ Ghosty, and we live with them, sometimes not even knowing they are one amongst us.

@ Bubbles, thank you!! Please do keep visiting.

@ Deepti, very horrifying experiences, I am sure!

@ Patchez, thank you! Be sure to let me know when its updated!

Satish Bolla said...

well, i know a couple of frnds whose childhood matches with your story(i wish this is jus a story). still, i, literally, felt like crying when i read this one.

d SINNER!!! said...

poignant truth....

must be a tale of many children...incest, abuse...call it whatever, it's an open secret....

i read above that u have treated such children...thnx, is all i wud say! ur doin a grt job, gettin smone out of such situations is really a difficlt thing....

Pravin said...

Not the sort of story I like to read but it was very well written. The way it begins and ends was powerful.

bt_crist said...

Oouch.
that doesn't mean, i didnt had pen n paper.

wat i didn't knew was ther exist something like blogspot.com

Solitaire said...

@ Satish, yeah it is so sad. We tend to think that this does not happen amongst Indians but it surely does.

@ D sinner, thank you Neha! It is very sad to work with these children. The depression, rage, and sexual behaviors that they develop are very hard to treat. One needs a lot of patience with them and the ability to control one's anger.

@ Pravin, thank you. What kind of stories do you like reading?

Reign said...

Just another moving story. You deliver it in a way i could really imagine.It's horrifying.

I pray for people like them.

Sam said...

such accounts, fact or fiction, always leave me in a hightened state of anger... so can't say much now!! am sorry!!

its a sad state of affairs to be honest. some can recover on their own, some are scarred for life only they never realise it!!!

Patchez said...

Hey Solitaire!
i request u to stop by the comments again, haven't posted bt the comments should tell u things :)

Pri said...

thats really horrifying...and its a shame that it goes on much more than we think it does...
loved the way u put it especially the beginning and the end---chris's innocence was well potrayed inspite of the fair description of the disgusting experience...

Cinderella. said...

Reminds me...of a crappy Danielle Steel book, 'Malice'.
Hated that book, and stopped reading DS after that.
Come up with a feel good post soon.

Solitaire said...

@ Reign, yes its very sad and we feel helpless because most of it is unknown to us.

@ Sam, yes I can only imagine what these people go through.

@ Pri, thank you! Child sexual abuse is very common all over the world. We just love to deny the reality because we like to put rose-tinted glasses on.

Solitaire said...

@ Cinderella, will you stop reading my blogs too? :(
I try to come up with a "feel good" post but somehow I feel that we cannot escape reality and how some people are less blessed than us in many ways. These are real people that I deal with in real life and crappy or not, it is the stark truth.

Hershey Desai said...

...
sigh..now i say it out... you have a lot of talent, and being modest at this point in your life is pretty useless :P
i guess you rank par with me, maybe more seing as you handle 5 blogs at a time(still not over that..i could barely maintain 2)

Hammett said...

I don't know what to say, and I have too much to say :S

divya said...

scary :( time for a happy story :P

Patchez said...

Post updated.. part 2 has come... Gawd... this is getting too long!! hope to finish things soon!! :(

vEENs said...

I have read about child abuse a lot Solitaire!
A LOT

I hope some day Chris tells his mom, or runs away or smethng!

You wrote it well Solitaire.. but alas! I fee verr bad after reading it!
:(

Sam said...

something i wrote about a year back: Child Abuse

willheim said...

oh solitare...

the innocence of a child...
the inhumanity of the sociopath.

the juxtaposition of the tender, naive dreams of a child, with such a horrrible reality is so poignant and deeply saddening.

you are an unflinching artist.

Solitaire said...

@ Hershey, thank you! What can I say? I passed the acid test I guess.

@ Hammett, say it! We have no word limit here. BTW, long time! How have you been?

@ Divya, trying hard!

@ Patchez, ok will come soon!

Keshi said...

u write so well!

Keshi.

gunj said...

this is sad :(
seems like one of those oprah shows i cried through...hate such animals who think thy are men!

Knatchbulley Hughzscene said...

oh dear!! its like 'kite runner' dnt read it completely.. abandoned it half way!!!
it must be so horrifyin fr kids to live with such childhood trauma!! i've read many stories in d papers.. do thz kids lead a normal life??

Ashu said...

ok, so i get the picture of the crappy comments out here.

neways

the story is pretty sad one.....i m at loss of words

Keshi said...

Gosh Solitaire it isnt your comment at all that got me pissed LOL! Such comments dun make me angry hun :)

Did u read Jim and Ali's comments..go read...they r the most OPINIONATED ppl I hv ever seen! And also Just_Mad's comments. Go and read them before they delete em now.


HUGS!

Keshi.

freesherry said...

It is so hard to believe people can actually do things like this to an 8 year old..
beautifully brought out emotions..
nice one

zahid said...

That hurt !!! Seriously....I dont know what to say but ......

I remember when young i used to think like that 6 years more 5 years more....When i can get my job and have allz to my wish free of all...

John F said...

I am not a modest person in this virtual world.

I know I can write very well, extremely well when I want to and can do magic with my words. I also know there are not many writers in this bloggerville who can match or superceed me in my skills.

There were only three blogs until now where I would visit twice, thrice a day and read the same post again and again.

Yours is fourth.

Thank you for your post. It makes me realize I am still human and still capable of experiencing emotions be it love, hate, disgust or a strong desire to murder some pervert.

I am in the process of changing the template of my blog. A process that scares me to hell. To understand how painfull and scary it is for me, try reading this

http://achingpen.blogspot.com/2008/01/ohh-fock-it.html

If nothing else, I promise a small smile on your lips as you read the above mentioned post :-)

As soon as I am done, I would like to blogroll you if you have no objections.

Thank you again for writing.

Best,
J

Lena said...

i dont know what is more depressing - the fact that your words make feel terrible for Chris and the story itself is horrifying or the fact that many kids are really going through this every day of their lives. Unfortunately not all are lucky enough to egt out of this. But then can we really call it luck when they do? After all they have gone through hell and it will always affect their lives. Too sad. I second you, i dont like sad stories.

Chriz said...

hehehehe.. chriz here.... kinda sad twist though...

Nits Pandita said...

Pretty depressing..why don't you try writing something pleasant next time...im sure you would do wonders at it.

Invincible said...

amazing!!

paisley said...

as i know this story is truer to life than many of us want to admit,, i take heart in the fact that chris has created a positive outlook for himself as he envisions being a doctor and eating mcdonalds and driving a silver car... never once does he dream of retaliation or perpetuation... very well thought out story line... excellent...

Pia Savage said...

This was very depressing but all too true and very well written

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John F said...

To be honest I was expecting some reaction to my comment in here.

Anyhows as promised, you have been blogrolled!

Solitaire said...

@ Keshi, thank you so much!

@ Gunj, :(

@ Knatchbulley, some do and some don't. It all depends on how much resilience they build and how other aspects of their life are, and a lot many other factors.

@ Ashu, :(

Solitaire said...

@ Sherry, thank you!! There are people out there who do even worse things to a child!

@ Zahid, yes. Some children lose the innocence very young.

@ John, thank you so much for your words. It means a lot to me that you selected my blogs to read. Boosts my self-esteem and encourages me to write more. Am sorry was unable to respond to your comments earlier. I do admire your courage to be honest in your comments and find them quite valuable. Thank you for blog rolling me.

Solitaire said...

@ Lena, this is so true! I wish that we could turn a blind eye to all the evil in the world. Sadly, we cannot.

@ Chriz, ooops!

@ Nits, I promise to try.

@ Paisley, thank you so much!

@ Pia, thank you.

Enigma said...

wow u write well..and this post is depressing for me coz i know such things r happening all around everyday

Meghna said...

I'm speechless....This was wonderful!

TC said...

Wow.

I just want to steal that little boy away. I'm afraid all the McDonald's and TV in the world can't make this right.

gautami tripathy said...

As a teacher, this pains me so much.

Can it get any worse than this?

OneMoreBeliever said...

u have written so well a story that is all too real and more painful than i can say as a mother of a child...

Alameen said...

a very good friend of mine was afraid of all grown up men during his childhood days. You know the reason.. It's horrifyin Sneha..

The guys abusing the kids should be stoned to death..

shex said...

no words
touche

ishqia said...

ur talent is no doubt too good..

but the story ugh.. disgusting...

SIDDHARTHA said...

Went through a number of stories... wonderful detailing... great endings.....keep up the good work..:)

Shruti said...

Would he be able to do a thing if the child spoke out about this to his mom?
..who knows what kind of mom she is..

harish said...

damn...
this made me jerk out of the hibernation I was in from blogs & blogging...

I know its true and makes a compelling telling but...I don't know, can't you reign in your creativity from writing stories like this?

I did once (http://harishc.blogspot.com/2006/03/tamasoma.html) and it thre me into a dark mood for days...coz it was partly based on truth (which, I am sure, is true for this story too)